Pretense

there's too much pain in my heart
too much pain that the tears just kept falling, without end
i don't even have the strength to stop them

there's too much confusion in my head
too confused that the memories kept flashing in my thoughts
i don't even know what's true anymore

i could remember every embrace, every kiss, every whisper of love
i remember every touch, every look, every smile
i remember every struggle, every pain, every ounce of anger
i remember trying, failing, and trying again
i remember every guilt, every tear, every slice of hurt

and everything is a pretense
everything is a lie
everything is a realization of false hopes

and i thought there's no pain greater than being left behind
this is a deeper kind of pain, something that will never go away.
something that will reside in the deepest, darkest part of my heart
the pain that blinds love, hope, tomorrow

the pain that makes a person choose... oblivion

everything is a pretense.