Out There

I wish I’m out in the sun.
Walking barefoot. Almost tasting the cold dew.
Letting the sun warm the coldness of my being.

I wish I’m dancing in the rain.
Naked. Feeling the softness of bitter caress.
Allowing the rain to wash over the emptiness

I wish I’m sleeping in my bed
Drowned in pillows. Catching my breath.
Taking in the absurdity of false closure.

I wish I’m anywhere but here.
Wherever. Where I can’t be with you.
Someplace I can’t look to hate you.
And love you still.