Camouflage

I wish I could tell you that I am not afraid
That I could leave and stay away
To stop hoping of holding you
To cease reaching in your dreams

I wish I could tell you I am strong
To give up searching for your eyes
To end hurting because of your freedom
Of seeing you in her arms

I wish I could tell you that I moved on
That I do not love you more than I should
Not waiting for your every breath
Not holding your every scent

I wish I could tell you that I chose right
When I had to let you go
I was right to have loved you
I am wrong that I still do